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Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Hey guys=) ive moved

See me there for less emo posts=)

11:46 PM

Thursday, May 22, 2008

Boo! lol its been exactly one month since my last post but holidays are near and i totally swear that i'll blog more!

Firstly i wanna say that THE BYRON GIRLS rocks lol !! yesterday was my school's sports meet and up till the day before, my 4 x 400m group wasnt even really formed yet. But Thankfully...
WE WON wooohooo lol actually... i think we're just glad wer're not the last. Then the guys were poking fun at us for being so scared before the race. And to give em credit. They're quite good supporters ehs. Sitting in the HOT HOTHOT sun and isolated from the rest of the school.

Now my complaints!!!! lol yesterday...i mean im not bitter about it or anything... but i couldnt help noticing how my House's area was like erm... end or the curve of the track...while erm... the rest of the school was on the grandstand...hmmm... Sighs just bcos my house's the last one don't give em the right to ostracize us!!! grrrr... and all my other frens were teasing us for being outcasted. Poor poor us=( owells GO BYRON! we have school spirit WOOOOOO!!!!

9:47 AM

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Lol i FIGURED IT OUT!!!! yay me=)

Just click on this link babes!


8:19 PM

Sunday, April 20, 2008

Saturday turned out really well after the initial anger of having our plpans pushed further and further back starting with the hour late meeting at 12 at STC's funfair( it was kinda bla... but at least i got to see my beloved and wonderful sofi=)) then suposed to meet and eat at 1.30 but in the end we only got to the beach at 4 and the sun was kinda waving bye to us. BUT lol thanks to es for remembering to bring the volley ball ystd was volleyball day and we ended up playing with strangers making friends along the way. It was FUN FUN FUN shows how much being friendly can do wonders to your social life* note to emo ppl: SMILE=)) *

lol ok a bunch of us(the girls ) cant play volleyball for nuts but we tried ehs? the subjective term being tried of course. Our hands turned red( sy's had some allergic reaction and Miki* i hope this is right* ended up having it swollen cos the ball hit some nerve) but our hard work paid off by by the end i could somewhat aim and hit the ball across. But of course slamming the ball was wayyyyy beyond my abilities due to the epic height difference when i was standing in front of the chye 3 times and a super tall greek who claims that she is amateur lol but can play superbly!!

After that we played basketball for ahwile and then left sentosa with happy smiles on our faces that looked like this =))))))))) . lol

Went to sy's hse for a PRATA supper/dinner yum yum the prata at my area is surprisingly good that day MAN.... yum yum all over again=) ok... here are some pics that kinda sums up my wonderfully perfect day=))

ok.... give me a day to figure out photo bucket...sighs

7:05 PM

Saturday, March 08, 2008

Today was a 99% great day. Tell you guys about the one percent later:)

Well...in the morning i went back to PJC to help out with the Merit Sports NAPFA. The bballers were doing the sit-up station and according to the teachers, its the most tiresome one. Cos there are actually alot of rules to what constitutes a proper situp and well...they were terrified that we,as girls, would not be able to handle the guys. BULLSHIT! lol it was fun in a very sadistic way. I mean...how often do you get a chance and authority to bark at some guy who is twice your size. And man... you should have seen the face on some of them when they come up in pain and u just say " NO COUNT" wuahahaha. Not that im sadistic... well... lets just say that i wouldnt mind a job as a commander in the army. DOWN 1864398275! lol

After that, i met up with Chye for breakfast at Macs.YUM! lol and we both went to my house. So we spent the rest of the day eating fries, playing winning eleven, watching spongebob repeats, studying and (me ) sleeping :)

For dinner we ate with my family and my bro's friend at pasir panjang( the satay there rocks my socks! ) and we headed to play at west coast after=) it was damn fun. All the obstacle course and everything! felt like i was 5 again. Why be forever21 when you can be forever5?After dinner we went back to my hse to play soccer and were joined by another of my bro's friend and Esmonde. This is where my horrible one percent starts.

( Cont. in next post... )

10:33 PM

Friday, February 29, 2008

Boo! man....im damn sad....=( i got 23rd place in this yr's cross country...perhaps i should have just followed (i cnt rmb who's advice) and taken my shoes and thrown at the 3 ppl b4 me lol. then i cn get into top 20.lol.

Oops...kk...i cnt b so mean. Anyway, 23rd place to a person like me who used to hate running and constantly came the last in secondary school bball trngs and failed 2.4km run....i shoulb be bloody glad. Wh33!!! lol

Anyway, i was a sports hazard today. Kind Angeline lent a bunch of us the hockey sticks so tt we could play and she was even nice enough to teach me!!! And how did i repay her back? i actually (accidently) hit her hip bone with the hockey stick OUCH! then while playing bball in the afternoon, i accidently threw the ball into the face my my OG mate. Thank god he had a sense of humour coz i was utterly embarassed (and with Huang hao luffing at me coz he witnessed both ACCIDENTS ). And that guys's reply to my"are you ok? is it bleeding?" was a weird/himbotic/knocked-senseless answer " is my nose crooked?" oh wells...

In the end! i even managed to spend some time with my beloved=)) and we have a lovely time together. today certainly couldnt have gone any better. I LOVE LIFE>.< cheers!

9:16 PM

Thursday, February 28, 2008

Boo! lol im now at the fourth day of official JAE lessons and so far... all i can say is that schoolwould be a bore if not for the people there. Seriously, my average lessons end at 10.30 and max is 11am. great and PJ's policy is that we can only leave school at 12.30. Great... lol so i guess it just gives us lots of time for bonding sessions.

Anyway i met shrek after school today to study and i was seriously quite excited bout hitting my books too... but as usual, my short attention span was at work. Saying that i was bored of the econs file i brought was an understatement. lol. the moment i reached QT lib i grabbed some lame books and proceeded to dump my file onto the floor. Ok...and the choice of books werent exactly very useful for my subject either...erm... with titles like " Funny stories from INDIA", "funny stories from KOREA", "Big book on Conspiracies" and erm..."Dadism" entertaining reads but they are not exactly the material thats gonna get you an A for GP either. OH wells i guess im supposed o psyche myself to study STUDY!!!!

Shrek as usual was being nice and insisted that i did not distract him, but i noe myself=) i was luffing like a madman when i couldnt answer a Integration QN he gave me... OK... Its weird actually, i love maths! seriously( although es and shrek who both have tried to teach me might claim otherwise.) I just don't know why my brain can't retain the info for long. Oh wells... the perils of having a short term memory. Sighs...i guess i really gotta put in like twice the effort!!

Yay! tomorrow is our PJ's cross country! run run run! burn fats burn fats burn fats! lol lol lol ! lol... happy shalala! As you can see im quite psyched up for tomorrow as well=))I love running though when people look at me they are tempted to think otherwise lol!

Ok...i think id better sign off my blog entry nowww coz i think im bodering insanity today! I LOVE EVERYONE! ciao ciao

8:56 PM

Thursday, February 07, 2008

Lips Of An Angel lyrics

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

*As you can see, this song is abt a guy who is still in love with his ex gf even though he is with another girl now. Sweet? NUH-aH! Two timing bastards SUCK. Guys with unfaithful dicks SUCK. GUYS that treat girls like shit SUCKS! BEWARE: huiyu has formulated a revenge plan which she is willing to share with any girl whu has ever been two timed and it includes things like "how to castrate...", "murder 101" and many many more.

GUYS be wary: Hell hath no fury like a female scorned:)Cheers!

ANYWAY i found the song interesting for some insane reason... owells...life doesnt have to make sense does it?
i love you

7:13 PM

BOO! HAppy CNY everyone!!!

ok...in the time ive been away not blogging ive...


1)made friends in 08a03
2)sprained my ankle
3)barely passed an econs test
4)made dar angry approximately 25698230 times
5)made him wanna break up with me (im sorry)

on a lighter note...ive...


1)Bought him a random rose on a random day
2)Cooked for him with LOVE=)
3)hugged him 1093349127581453159 times
4)helped him clean his windows( and came up with an ingenius way to do so)
5)loved him every second:)

so in this case...the good neutralised the bad rite?=)

Stupid soh chye aikkkkkk.... come back from malaysia soon...i miss you in the erm....
26hrs tt i havent seen you, 21 hrs since we've spoken and 20 hrs since u entered malaysia. lol

i think im obsessed over you

You are my absolute addiction.

SHOUTOUT to my fellow emcees: i had a great time with you guys on stage!

Shoutout to my Mr Soh:
i love you

6:53 PM

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

"Hey There Delilah"
Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl, tonight you look so pretty
Yes you doTimes Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true
Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice, it's my disguise
I'm by your side
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me
Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me, girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame
Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You'll know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one's for you
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.
Great song with great lyrics!

9:54 PM

*to you guys...dun take offence! i really think ure great*

: Cool.
Can play the guitar.
Quiet most of the time.
Yet fun to talk to as you get to know him.

: Atheletic
currently in ODAC
An optimist

: Calm
Serious looking
Quite outgoing

And to add on: All three guys are gentlemanly
Great friends even if youre not looking for a reletionship!

lol really...thanks again guys!

9:42 PM


hey guys! thanks to Joanne's reminder, ive apparently been off my blog for a long long long time=)) but im backkkk!! or at least thats what i say everytime...

oh wells... today went rather well.

Here's a catch up on the past few day of attending pjc in J1 again:

On day one i cried coz i found out that i wasnt in the same class as all 3 of em!!!! unfairrr....
then it changed for the better whn i found out that at least it was all mass lectures so it wasnt tt bad=)) and i still get to hang with em

Today i found out tt we had this whole chunk 2 hrs and the best thing was that it coincided with 07a03's so it was hell fun to sit with all of em again!!! and to gossip(guys included) and bitch and joke and everything!!! i miss em so muchhh! lol. Actually i was supposed to wait till 2 for em to end their lessons then go eat together but in the end i couldnt wait coz i ended my day at 12.30. haix. perhaps on thurs AHMA?

So after sch we waited for yy at the concourse to go slack arnd. And we ended up going to Queenstown today! haha finally sumwhr near my hse. Had lunch at Anchorpoint's subway and we were chatting like hell loads. It was really really fun and i really really enjoyed myself=)) btw...subway cookies are the best. And today we shared daniel's first subway venture*cheers* after that we jalan jalan awhile at anchorpoint first before moving off the queensway.

Quite fun to shop with the 3 of em or maybe i should count Daniel out coz he seemed bored to death lol. I asked but he assured me that this time's shopping wasnt bad coz apparently he yawns when he is out with his mom=) great...

lol in the end rb decided to buy a pair of kappa sneakers and chyeaik came to pick me up=))

OK....i know ive made a decision to be a part-time gf but its really kinda hard to not see him on weekdays>.< dun blame me...i just seem to be addicted to him...greatt...
Lol so far, we've seen each other almost everyday for the past 19mths
Of which 13 was when we were in a reletionship.
On the record, the longest time that we have not met was 9 days while i was in Japan.
The avrg was 1 or 2 days...and that was only once or twice before we officially steaded. This stats seriously scare me... i think i need psychological help~.~ *bleargh*

lol...ok...i think i just need him...

Wells to end off i want to take this post off the chyeaik topic and start to thank everyone=):

To begin with i wanna thank the 3 great guys(Daniel,Ruibin,yongyuan) who have been with me these days. I don't know how you guys feel having a girl tagging around you guys all the time but i just wanna thank you guys for being there and you may not know but i think you guys are great!!! So to help you and hopefully word will pass round to ur crushes...>.< im gonna post a classified for you guys=)

I also wanna thank my babe for being there for me and i honestly know how whiny i am and so thank you for being so patient with me all the way. Even though we have our fights and bad days and stuff...thanks for giving in to me and reminding me how much u really love me.

to the rest of a03! im just thankful that i have you guys and still be able to talk to all of you! may our bitching gossip sessions never end! love you guys!

8:35 PM

Monday, November 26, 2007

Boo! long time no see or blog or wadever...haha have been busy playing recently=)) so damn lazy to blog..oh wells i shall use pics to show u what ive been doing...in chronical order of course:)

Nov 1(erm thurs)

lol in the morning i had PW presentation and im damn glad pw is finall over...gonna miss my mates though...


I'll miss you guys! haha this project was erm...relatively fun hahah had a good time doing erm...boring research with u guys! LOVE LOVE LOVE
then rite after that i had to rush down to IMM to meet essss to do last min grocery shopping!! haha and the poor LAZY boy got stuck in the mud trying to take a short cut through the fields....guess whu was der to capture that kodak moment=))
lol then aft tt had to rush agn to prepare chye's bday. haix it was damn tiring but damn worth it!! Coz it was supposed to be a surprise big party so i had to distract him then that idiot was so hungry so i was like coming up with dumb excuse to stay at the beach like saying" eh i love shells damn pretty!! lets pick up 10 diff ones first ok?=)....eh that one cnnt la...not nice...not shiny ...lol" but it turned out A OK=)) haha

10:22 PM

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Heys peeps! im back again after all these while * cheers for me *

i guess this post aint gonna be good news coz first of all....i did so badly for my promos....as Jo goes singing along " ONLY U......are the..." lol....ok...its no laughing matter but i mean...what can i do. So i'm praying that i dont get expelled lol...* the rest goes "CHOY! " *

lol...but for every bad thing there is always good things to be seen as well...its just whether you choose to accept it and be glad for it=)

Thanks to so many people who have helped me through this 2 days!

1. MY DAR!!! for being there for me and standing up for me and taking in all my shit and
still loving me at the end...Although people think that im over reliant on you ( Which i dun
think so cos im IN-DE-PEN-DENT !) im truly just thankful that there is someone who will
always be there for me 24/7 .I LOVE YOU

2. Sha! Who is also there for me but not as available as the one mentioned above =P thanks for
listening and taking all my shit=))

3. Jo.N=) Who although is irritating sometimes O-O but still my ever loyal ah ma...Thanks for
thinking that i dont deserve this shitty days and trying to organise a rebellion to get me to
promote haha... cuteeee....

4. Aly^-^ the smarty pants. For cheering me on during bball trng just now.Lol and making jo do
the chicken dance in public to cheer me up=)

5. Von the smiley face hater and LJ the copycat hater =)) who has been unknowingly cheering
me up with all their random antics and words of encouragement.

6. FAAAArAAA and MEEEshell for just helping me enjoy school life...

7.Ka kia and Pok Pok Keh: surprised? the cfm die ppl sitting behind me ystd. U guys actually
helped me to accept situation by just making me luff about our results and all the random

8. CassANDra, Ernest and RuiBin my fellow pw mates for staying up til 2 am with me to perfect
our PW oral presentation despite results.

9. YY, OGR and Noch for seriously being the funny dudes that they are.

10. The person* im so sorry i cnt rmb who* who offered me tissue in class yesterday=))

Haha...felt like crying in class ystd...in fact i did with all the stuff happening recently...and really...as insignificant as u think you guys are to me...i just wanna tell you all that I <3 color="#ff0000">
Lol and on a lighter note...i noe that you guys all love me too

*touching moment*

ok. done. haha. blog sommore later on.

10:09 PM

Thursday, September 06, 2007

Boo! haha.... i have like 4 mins now to blog while aiting for my brother to loan me his phone connector then i'll be jogging to Tiong Bahru PLaza!! lol haix... chye aik lazy go then es all the way at clementi....damn...tt means i have to come home through that dark dark road near the mrt alone( bus sux.takes like ages...). Sobs. haha. Never mind>.< this is more chance for me to learn to be independent. HUIYU DOES NOT NEED ANYONE wooohooo!!! POPULAR! here i come...lol blog more ltr ciao ciao

7:32 PM

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

smile u idiot! SMILE! coz there are a million things to smile about=)

8:34 PM

Monday, September 03, 2007

Avril Lavigne_Keep Holding On

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand

When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in

No, I won't give in

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say "I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through Just stay strong
Cause you know
I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through -Ahh, ahh-
Keep holding on -Ahh, ahh-
Keep holding on

There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

11:54 PM

Boo! haha...its been the longest time ever!!!

Today was also a day of thinking for me....
i really wonder if he still likes me as much? i mean, i feel really bad doubting him and stuff but well, it kinda bugs me. For example, like last night, i really like playing online mahjong with him, but last night i felt real weird. Like if he loses or anything then he will somehow get annoyed and stuff. I keep promising myself to not play with him anymore coz after that his mood gets kinda spoilt but oh wells, i have never ever kept my promises do i? =)

today i was supposed to run at 7 in the morning....but when my alarm rang, i simply couldnt care and i just shut it down.lol....so on and on and on...i rumbled on into my dream world only for it to be shattered by one thought.JE library! i tot i was late so i sat up immediately and realised tt indeed i was a little behind time so i rushed and everything and managed to meet ah ma on time=)

And today, when jo and i was sharing umbrella, i realised something, he has never been so protective of me or maybe just not in a long long time. Like if we share umbrella, his thoughts is always to get to shelter. He makes the effort to shelter me but as we walk he would walk real fast and if i get left in the rain he wouldnt know. In the train too, coz i was standing at the partition next to the opposite side of the door. He used his right hand to hold the handle beside the door instead of the left. I even had to ask him to change hands...stupid huh? lol... but its been some time since he did that. He say coz that side dun have bar to hold but i was like: der what... and he was like tts not what i meant. I guessed maybe coz its further. but there was this huge gap between us, he could have stepped nearer? I was stoning at how far his shirt was away from me lol.I guess its ridiculous nit picking like that but sometimes u feel that these small little things matter too.

NOt to be boastful>.< ...but i think i have a really strong type of character=P but as much as it seems that my external facade is steady, im still a girl inside. Someone who really want someone to love her inside out, someone that needs a protective shadow overher , someone that is fragile too. Maybe u just forgot. I guess its my fault for acting strong. And i know that some things happen so long ago and i should seriously forget. But i just can't.

Like how he sent her home the night he was supposed to send me...
Like how he told me that im being paranoid...
Like how he told me that he feels stressed by me...
Like how he thinks that i have changed...
Like how i was sick and needed him but he was having fun with his friends instead( oh wells class gatherin?)
Like how he thinks i don't give him freedom...

Maybe he does make sense but i really cnt help the way i am. Im realli kinda the protective type... i guess freedom does have its price.In this case its me...i cnt not care about him. But if he needs absoulute freedom then maybe im just not the right girl? im really beginning to doubt myself nwww....grrr...lol i hate myself...

He told me that all the pain i felt is cause of my ownself. That im pulling him into my self created misery. And when i told him that i am afraid that he'll leave me coz of sumone else. His reply was that if he ever leaved me it would be because of myself. My heart shattered and hasnt been together since=) but maybe it has made me stronger? after all a heart that is broken cant have anything worse happened to it? what cn anyone do? step on it? probably just cut themselves=) I said that i wont cry anymore and i really did it...so farr...haha.

the people there are like wayyy....ks...all the early birds came at like 9(according to sources) and by the time library opened for 5 mins, ALL the seats were gone. Ok...let me put it this way...one person to one table...and when i ask if i can seatm they just coldly stared at me and say"sorry, taken up..." when there is apparently only one person there. GRRRR....( poor poor ppl...kena treated like maid...get sent by frens to chope seats while their friends happily lay at home for another half an hr is their pink and purple dreamland...oh such is life...). So in the end, al, guanri , ruibin, ahma and i were like sitting on the floor studying....and this caused major butt ache>.< The huiyu in the past wun cry...in fact... the huiyu in the past wun let any guy bully her... if her stead was ever mean to her... then she was immediately clear that he is nt meant for her then it was bye bye=) but this time the lines have been blurred=( Maybe this is love...

I really hate myself for behaving this way...but he have never had the feeling of being 2 timed.He would not understand how it feels when a guy treasures you one moment and ignores you the next. He have never known what its like to see girls name on sumone's phone and have to be able to bluff herself. He would have never known what it feels like to have ur fren tell u that what you think was happening was right( 2 months later, bcos he was scared to hurt me). He would never have known what it feels like to have her call put down early so that HE could talk to his other gf. He would never noe how it feels like for HIM show how hurried HE is to put down the phone coz he was out with that girl.He could never understand the kind of guilty feeling felt when i got some other guy just so that i could 2 time HIM back. He would never noe what it feels like to initiate a break up coz u cant take the self denial anymore. I took me years to recover and learn how to love. I dun wanna feel like that ever again... i really cnt stand anyone leaving me.... i never want to have that feeling again. ...

lol i feel so much better after ranting....happy happy happy =]

i love you

10:23 PM

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Haix....this week is a super BUSY week!!! thats why i havent been blogging lately.Oh wells.... here's a recap of this week...

Monday 19 august 2007

haha...monday was FUNN!!! coz we had inter-class after PE today and it was all i was looking forward to =) And guess what...my orange nike shoes became happy and ithe bottom came out so it was happily flopping away.Whee!!!! So i borrowed Ruibin's shoes instead.And to commemorate me making his shoes proud...here are sum pics and the score was 2 wins out of 2 matches.YAY! hahaha

Me in Ruibin's Shoes
ruibin wearing my HAPPY SHOES!
Our HAppy feet! haha

9:59 PM

Monday, August 13, 2007

haha.Long time nvr blog already....
Today's accomplishment:

1. I sat through geog test!
2. My pw group worked hard=)
3. We finished TENG YE XIAN SHENG for chi( and it wasnt even that bad*olay*)
4. I umpired the netball game...unfortunately....i was outshined by wyner haix...i shall blow harder nxt time then maybe the whistle wun sound so sissy>.<
5. Yvonne, Lunjia, Joanne and i waited till 5.plus to find out that geog was cancelled..tsk( this is an accomplishment coz we bonded kies=))
6. After that yvonne and i stayed back and had night study with Hendrick till 9

P.S i managed to absorb things into my head.HIP HIP HURRAY!

LOl, today's night study was an eye opener...yvonne, hendrick and i were like studying and toking and managed to talk about damn random stuff . And the bugger kept making me tell whu likes him....* tsk.. got gf le dun c c so much heh...* I guess talking it was eye opening to talk with em...LOL i confessed to yvonne that i used to think she was damn dao, thats why the first few days of sch i din tok much to her...and the poor girl was wondering why i dao her=P

Btw...hendrick...really is not what i expected .Haha....i tot he looked like the type after school will go to jurong rd blk 123 to mix around then start gang fight.But apparently he can play the piano and the guitar....and is super nice to his gf (but nt nice to us coz he sae cnnt treat his gf the same as other girls mah...) lol *to HIM: hint hint...nw u noe ar...better treat me nicely hor...ltr i jealous=PP * I had this good impression of him tonite until 8 plus 9 when we were bout to leave...

Quoted directly from HENDRICK's mouth: " Oh My GOD! I BROKE A NAIL!"

lol.BIMBO~...i mean HIMBO~

YAY.Yvonne! I had a gud time with u today yay!

10:21 PM

Thursday, August 09, 2007

使 - tank

我不会怪你 对我的伪装
天使在人间是该藏 好翅膀
怎能让你 为了我被碰伤

你总能平复我不安 的夜晚
我才看见 它原来在前方

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁 (我身旁)
没有谁能取代你在我心上 (我心上)

小小的手掌 大大的力量
我一定也会像你 一样飞翔 (一样飞翔)

没有谁能把你抢离 我身旁 (我身旁)
你是我的 专属天使唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我身上 (我身上)

没有谁能把你抢离我身旁 (我身旁)
你是我的 专属天使唯我能独占
没有谁能取代你在我身上 (我身上)
拥有一个 专属天使我哪里还需要别的愿望 Woo Wu Woo Ho~ Wu~ Ho

*I was looking at the mtv and i realised how much i loved the lyrics! lol* enjoy

11:00 PM

I feel really hurt...

Last sat was my sch's open house and he said that he would come and see me then pick me up...
I was elated and i even happily told Alycia and joanne repeatedly in the morning that my dar was coming...
Then he called me to tell me in a irritated tone that he was still buying shoes...
i really tried to control...i really did.I din breathe a word to him about my dissapointment.All i wanted was to meet him after all i din c or talk to him at all on Fri as he had sch service at fmss. Oh wells i noe that that very evening he had his sch's version of prom so he was rushing to get shoes. Bt it still hurt inside...
So bad that i went home alone and cried in the mrt...i felt so stupid that i pretended to yawn and wiped away my tears.
He saw my blog the next day and appologised to me.But i had to be so stupid to tell him partially how i feel.
He got so irritated that he told me he wished he was like Es...that he doesnt have to feel bad when he is out late...because, he said that i made him feel guilty for not being on the fone with me....
i was too stunned for words...
all those night i stayed up till 12 plus 1 just to wait for him to go home so that i could at least talk to him on the journey...
all those nights i stayed up even when he couldn't give me a timing of what time he is going home...
All those nights i waited
a few times in vain...
and all he could say was that he needs freedom.

So i went back and tried again.For the past few days...i din wait for him to finish his work to talk.
I just slept at 11 when im done with mine.
Then on weds, i thought they made plans to go gombak gym then come pick me up frm sch to go town together, in the end it din happen...i got happy for nothing.Oh wells, i guess there was no promise involved.
we went out to watch rush hour 3.
At first they wanted to eat after the movie but i needed to go home so i told the guys nvm, the girls go home first.Then dar insisted that he will send me home.So i said ok...in the end...he was so busy on the fone he couldnt leave es and mouse and the 3 girls just patiently waited for them to make arrangements until we got abit irritated...thus i just went home
with sy.Which is fine btw coz we live in the same block!!

About 10.30 he told me they were on the bus on their way to es's house to play overnight mahjong. So at 11 plus when i was about to slp i called him to sae good night and stuff. He told me that he just sent sum girl from his class home coz its on the way and she said her house der very dark.

Its unfair...he can leave es and mouse to send her home but not me...i got really upset last night but i din sae and i just cried myself to slp...
i woke up this morn feeling so bad that i din wanna go for pw meeting.But i guess it isnt fair to em if i put my emotions in the way.

When i rched his house i was feeling better but looking at him, last night came back...infact, the whole week came back... i really wanted to cry...its so unfair...

i ended up emoing so we kinda got into a tiff...he kept repeating that its not as if he wanted to...he kept asking me what i want him to do...
but i really duno... it got bad and i left but i ended up at his void deck coz i was so tired i din wanna walk anymore...

by some way i ended up at his house again and everything was fine...i happily went home...
and happily ate pizza(with abit of guilt)
Happy...until i was stupid again...just a few minutes ago, i had to go mention last night on the fone... I said that i din think going to commonwealth to send her home was counted as on the way... he agreed as well.

he said that its not as if he din wanna fetch me coz he knew that she was going to go home and so that he could fetch her....or sth like dat...i think...but the bottom line is that he did send her home and out of the way too

... i can forget...oh dear, pls just knock my head and let me go back to the start....

but i cnt forgive easily...

I try not to be affected...but everyword he saes and everything he does just have this huge impact on me... everytime im with him i feel so small...i like feeling small... but sometimes...soo small...so small that i feel insignificant...

When will my one litre of tears be used finished?

i love you

10:12 PM

Lol.HappyNational Day everyone!!! here's a flag for u=)

Lol.Watched Rush Hour 3 with My besties (minus rah rah) then the 6 of us ended up cam whoring at PS and The Cathay. I LOVE EM!!!! muack muack muack!!!

i love you

9:57 PM

Saturday, August 04, 2007

At the Beginning- Richard Marx and Donna Lewis

We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope
You were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turningI
'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers, on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming, how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey

I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you
Knew there was somebody somewhere
I need love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart
And life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Life is a road now and forever wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
Oh oh ohStarting out on a journey
Life is a road and I wanna keep goin'
Love is a river I wanna keep flowin'
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning
With you

11:42 PM

today's post:

Happy 12th bdae HUN!

IN the morning had to wake u[ at 8 to get to the NDP ceremony thingy...haix... lol thank god al and enoch were there. Coz all schools in our neighbourhood had to send in students to attend so i guess got abit of atmosphere...if u get ehat i mean...Even the kindergarten sent kids okay.DAMN CUTE.Even enoch tried to act cute... unfortunately i cnt put up his cutey pic coz if i did. I'd be dead...squashed to death actually. (he used bernard as a threat...grrr... but bernard wun hurt girls ... will he? hmmm... smile=) )

I had open house today and i was doing ushering so i guess it was really tiring.But i guess it was quite fun spending time with your teammates and frens=)

Bel and i fin our mahjong game and beat JUNLIANG! Who apparently admitted his incompetency in Mahjong game at about 8 pm tonight.HAHA!

*I felt dissapointed...i really did... *

i love you

11:26 PM

3rd Aug- friday

Happy 11th bdae hun!!!!

My lao shi's granpa passed away thus she wasnt in school.In the end, yvonne, lunjia, jo, al and i were the only ones int he classroom studying( guan ri and enoch joined us later). I helped lun jia french plait her hair and we were so happy bout it!! yay yay! and hendrick had to burst our bubble by saying its not nice coz its messy. and i was like"....eh.... i tie one ley....." haix... but in the end i retied it and it look good.Haha. now we agreed with each other to tie french plaits on monday! whee!

jo, me, lunjia, yvonne, al


french please!

jo and the donuts i helped her buy.Notice how she is TRYING to be cute like the smiley?=))

Then after econs till trng was a good one hr plus away so al, michelle, farah, yong yuan, ruibin and i stayed at the econs class supposingly to do work...however, in the end we started talking about evrything else.HAha SCARY MOVIE RAWKS!

al acting cute-ish

i din get to see him today although its supposedly chyeaik week coz he has service today at his secondary school. IN the end he only rched home and tok to me around 11 plus....haix and i waited so late just to talk to him and the nxt day nida wake up at 6 coz i have to attend sum national day bla bla thing 99 students from other classes....yawnz...i was really tired but i managed to keep myself awake by continuing to pack the sweets for open house tomorrow....

i love you

11:09 PM