Well he did it this time...He said that he should be going home yesterday night but he din say what time he was going home. i Didn't ask either... but i waited anyway. Till i was so tired i fell asleep.
This morning he called to tell me that he was still at his friend's house... i felt really stupid i guess.
i managed to keep my tears in check for a few messages then i told him that i lazy to msg him already...
I turned to playing DDR to forget everything...but the effect wouldnt last long...only while i was playing.
I expected him to call me when he got home but i guess one shouldnt just expect stuff huhs? i guess i should have said every thing i want clearly?
I msged him again coz it was already 3 then once more at 4 then i couldnt wait and called him at 5 ... he was sleeping...
='(
Why do i cry so much and so eaily nowadays? I am afterall the girl that had a record of not crying for 6 years. I feel so fragile inside...or maybe it is already broken and im using my tears to hold them up. And after i cry my one litre of tears, it would all just shatter. I want my old self back. I want that tom-boy back. I don't want this sissy thingy i am now. I wanna wear guys jeans and tees all day and not care what anyone thinks...
After writing this blog i'll go back to waiting for him to call me when he wakes up....
another long wait ...
i love you
do you?
